Resignation

Today is the 18th of February and officially my last day working in my current company; will move on to a new company on the beginning of next month. Em.. yay?~

 

It may seem a little weird because I've only started working in this company since October 2013 lol, and I tendered my resignation letter around 3-4 months later (20th January 2014). To be honest I really love the colleagues I met here, and am really glad to know some nice friends; they are the ones who have supported and made my days throughout the months. I know I'm seriously gonna miss them LOADS T__T.

 

But still, life has to go on, and obviously I have to keep working towards better job goals and prospect etc. Anyhow I'm kinda excited about my new workplace, and I do hope I could get to meet more nice people ^__^ while upgrading my knowledge (And won't be changing any job in the near future).

 

P/S: Am praying hard that my Japan plan won't fail me this time.

Hair Colour Evolution

So while waiting for my AniManGaki 2013 performance videos to be rendered and uploaded on youtube, I decided to write up a post about my hair colour changes over the past one and half year!~

 

As some of you might (or may not) know, before I bleached my hair blonde, my hair is straight black (duh lol) and I did not go for any rebonding, perm, dye or anything saloon related except hair cut of course. So my first time stepping into a proper saloon was the time I did the biggest change to my long black hair -- bleached my whole head blonde. It was a nerve wrecking decision as the colour change is too big, and it may not suit me etc etc.

 

 

Took this right before stepping into the saloon haha, drinking chatime.

My first proper hair make-over was at A-Saloon, which I have to say was my WORST experience EVERRRR. It was completely my first time so I guess I kena conned by them wth. The whole process was really x100 uncomfortable: they weren't gentle with my hair (all the pullings!!! so my neck hurts like hell), they probably used some cheap lousy bleaching powder on me so my scalp hurts as well, I had to sit there for EIGHT! LAPAN!HACHI! 八！long hours for just bleaching + hair dye, and the total charges is MYR 87X.XX (which is just crazy). Was feeling pretty down because my first experience had to be so dreadful, plus the colour wasn't what I want =_=.

 

So yeah, I won't ever ever in my life step into A-Saloon again.

 



 

Discussing with the stylist about the colour -- which is a complete waste of time actually since their colour chart is so limited.

 

 

I'm SOOOOOO glad that Akiko was so kind enough to teman me throughout the entire 8 hours long process, without her I'll probably be bored to death or turned into a mushroom.

 

 

Still black hair lol.

 



Bleach starts!!

Black hair slowly bleached out...

 

First Bleaching done! The colour is so yellow I'm speechless.

 



 

2nd bleaching.  

 

 

Even brighter yellow now, haizzz. Looking back I still can't believe I could withstand the 8 hours long torture and not getting the results I want.

 

The dye now. The colour is somewhat ashy x greenish x yellowish blonde.

Here! All done~ I had to spend time looking at the mirror to get used to my new blonde hair that time haha.

 

See...their styling sucks too lol. These type of curls even I could do better.

Took this picture when I reached home. Curls almost gone hahaha. Afterall it was my first, so I was pretty proud of myself for taking the step for this huge image change ^^. Having blonde hair is pretty high maintenance: It's harder to go out without looking proper (makeup and clothings) with this hair; I couldn't use just any shampoo and have to use loads of treatment wash, sprays, oil, hair nutrient, you can name any.    

 

After my horrifying first experience, I decided to go to number76 for my hair styling. And it was probably my best decision I did for my hair.

Touch-up bleach and hair-dye. See the difference? Smoother looking hair, a less tired me (whole process took only 2-3hours).

 

Hehe, ever-so-kind Akiko was with me as well.

My first time at number76, Akiko and I went to this ramen restaurant in Midvalley, and here's where something happened. The entire billboard fall ON us, literally. Pretty much like a scene from final destination lol. I was few cm from being crushed on the head with my face in the ramen bowl.

Now, back to hair topic lol.

Another simple touch up bleach and dye. Did some different shade of blonde each time. Love my hair condition~ To put it simply, I went to number76 ever since the good first time experience haha. My stylist for the first few times was Hikky-san, a Japanese stylist who then transferred to another branch later.

And then I went for Amy, who now also transferred to another branch =_=. Wonder if it's my luck.

Anyway, Amy did this ombre hair for me~ Mainly because I stopped bleaching my roots since then. Ombre hair was the hype back then!

Another one of Amy's work. I wanted a pinkish blonde hair colour; but she made it pinkish purple for me hahaha, but it's fine since I kinda liked the style back then.

 

Pink-blonde looks quite dark without proper lightings.

 

After Amy got transferred to another branch, I then went for Steve (who was previously my mum's stylist). To be honest I actually prefer his works more than Amy, so am still sticking with him for now (provided he didn't get transferred to another branch again).

 



My first try with Steve~ Got inspired by Elena's new hair from Vampire Diaries, she had a dark brown base with red highlights. I decided to go for a purple-ish pink instead ^^. I highlighted some parts of my fringe and a thick strip at one side of my hair, feeling creative~~

Here's my new (current) hair colour!!! Steve is really good with mixing colours~ This time I wanted a light brown base with pink and purple highlights. Was pretty happy that Steve decided to style my hair with mermaid wave since I've always wanted to give it a try. Btw, the waves go off after 2 days lol. But I think the highlights look great with straight hair too~

 

Am now thinking about my next hair colour/design. Feeling Curious?



First Name Card

Finally did my first name card during June (C2AGE batch). Sayoko was telling me about her coscard design and I thought why not join the batch to make my own namecard since I wanted to have my first properly printed namecard.

 

I had loads of fun designing using PS, did many prototypes before making my final decision ^^. I made one before this using a simple template and printed them using my own printer but that's of course doesn't look remotely nice lol, so this time is definitely better~

 

Front:

 

Back:

Decided to use a butterfly themed background for the front~ Was having a hard decision between blue sakura petals or blue butterfly. I wanted to do a pinkish theme but didn't have any pictures to match with it, so I stick to blue till the end.

 

Due to my inexperience, I did not know that after printing the brightness will be lower than what I see from the computer screen =_=. So yeah, my picture look dark in the actual card haizzz (the front was good though). Kinda dissapointed but oh well, this is my first and my second could always be better.

 

Can't see the darkness from this picture coz I used some flash lol.

Will end this post with my June nail design: Neko themed~

And my neko themed outfit~

First time posting from phone

So yeah, I know being awake at this hour is nothing unusual for me; but recently I have more classes than ever until the end of my exams, and they are all packed with full day classes (more than 10 hours usually). This made me feel incredibly hard to cope with my biological clock and really started to realise I'm having a serious non travel 'jetlag'/sleeping issues, omg.

Usual once a week class is ok because I only need to deal with lack of sleep for a day instead of few consecutive days like now..So yeah here I am blogging with my Iphone Blogger app while trying to drain all my battery (hp batt + body energy) down so that I can go charge them real soon and start the dreadful day again.

**I don't know how the layout will turn out since it's my first time using the app; if there's anything weird I'll re-align them when I'm back to com.

家につまらないから。。。

Okay, um, Akiko have been saying that my blog is DEAD, which is quite true. It has been like Months (omg) since I last posted. Rather to say that i'm super busy, I have to admit that i'm really slacking off from blogging, which is so not good! So I better buck myself up and start blogging no matter how short the post may be.

So...what happened since the past 2 months...Final exams, C2AGE 2011 performance, and stucking at home. I wonder if there's some other stuffs. About finals, I had to say, I never felt my degree is being a smooth-sailing one. Ignore the issues with some morons and idiots in the course, modules are always so dull and demanding to me. I know I just had to accept it and go over it like there isn't a choice, but feelings are still there no matter how much I tried to hide or escape from it. So, here comes, I failed like 2 of my subjects, still on provision and actual results not out yet, better not put too much hope on it.

What I'm worried of is not being unable to get my degree, I'm quite sure that I could pass my referrals. The thing that makes me go haywire is to start my ACCA course. The datelines are all jumbled up- Sunway uni wants me to get approval from acca, but the god-damned results is not out. And even if it's out, there's this massive problem with my referral exams. Not just that I have to get my maximum exemption from acca, which requires my full results, and again it's not out and I might fail it. Acca exemption dateline is July 31st even though the exam registration dateline is October =_=. Really very stupid considering the exam registration is so far away, but I have to submit the whatever exemption thingy before my certificate is out.

It's not that I'm overly looking forward to my new ACCA course I would say, but I feel uncomfortable staying at home since I will be labelled as a useless person. And of course I wanna get this accounting thingy over as soon as I can. If my registration were to be late, I can't graduate on next year's June, instead I can only finish it on DECEMBER 2012!!! Thats like half more year of craziness, which i'm trying my best to avoid now. And as most of the people know, I'm quite restricted in the places I could go (means I can't go anywhere without anyone). So by studying at least I can be out there, I can go see the world like 20% more than usual.

Enough of my whinning from my troubled study life (since there will always be trouble and I can't do anything but to just go along with the flow for now). I should talk a bit about my C2AGE 2011 performance. As usual I love going on stage, I still think that going up there each and every time is my best moments of life. Didn't take any pictures except for those who took my picture when i was on stage, am quite dissapointed in that. Oh but what makes me really happy is that there are people remembered me from my previous performance, you won't imagine how happy this makes me. I love the crews, people who I work together with even for just a really short while before the stage. And of course I have to thank my mum and sis who fetched and watched my performance.

There are still many things which I can improve on my stage performance, I'll definitely keep pushing myself to become better. Being on stage, I just felt like I could do anything; from sending mails to the stage manager, choosing my songs, editing, remembering the lyrics etc etc... I felt that I could pour my heart in deciding them. The short moment being on stage can be really nerve-wrecking, but after seeing that there's people who listenned to me, and gave me a clap, and remembered me, I got addicted to my happiness and I really want more. I do feel helpless before, since I'm practically choosing this alone, but there are some who supported me by telling me that my recordings were good and I should continue to sing and make my life out of it. All these good and happy stuffs makes me unable to turn back, I should have just go be reckless in my life, at least if I crashed I wouldn't have regret ^^.

So the stucking at home and rot part. Am currently wanting to get more performance, but it's really hard without transport. I can't really start up a band or some group too, since meet ups is demanding for me. I really can't wait for the day I can on my feet and start wallking on my own. Oh and I gave up joining the Music festival due to the lack of mood. I just hope that i can keep my dreams running, as well as my reality.

復活！！

 Oh wow, I can't believe this is my first post for the year, after umm...4 months =_=...What a lazy blogger I am.

Anyway, I haven't been doing much stuff, except going to UK for two weeks for exchange~, UK was really fun, many things happen, but it was really great! I love exploring places by myself, forming trips and meet up with my old friends. I love the stuff I got for myself too, for example my Ed Hardy perfume and Juicy Couture ring >_<..How I wish to go there again.

While I was in UK, i got the news that I passed my JLPT exam. Now i'm officially a JLPT N1 level person!! Kinda shock to get a relatively good results as the exam was really tough and only 24% of the whole world passed the exam. I'm sure this result will be of great use to me and I'm happy that my hard work pays. Am sad after hearing the news about Japan tsunami during my trip as I was planning to go to a concert by my favourite band next year, I'm sad that I may have to postpone the trip. I hope that Japan can get through this crisis, god bless them.

More, I had planned many stuffs for myself for this year, I hope I can do all of them and climb up the ladder to become the star that no one can reach. Oh and for beauty plans, I'm currently VERY interested in Gyaru style makeup, so I will buy Popteen mags and Mina mags alternately (popteen has more gyaru stuffs >_<). Am collecting and practicing my makeup skills, have to be a happy pretty girl!~ Oh and I really need to clear up my wardrobe again so that I can re-arrange all my nice clothes and put them in proper order (not selit here selit there).

Will try to blog more starting now, blog revived!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2011!!!~

(1) Here ends my Lovely 2010, and Welcome 2011~~

Today is the last day of Year 2010. As usual, I will be posting about my year 2010, how I lived through my ups and downs. Since it’s such a special year 2010, I will try to split this long year post into 10 posts, for everyone to view through the entire blog page ^_^.

Index:
1. Brief through the year (this post)
2. Comic Fiesta 2010
3. My 20th Birthday, and sis’s 14th Birthday
4. K-outings
5. Meet-ups with precious friends! ~
6. Performance and music?
7. Japanese & Bon Odori 2010
8. Fashion and shopping (wink wink)
9. Achievements…(+ failures of course >_<)
10. 2011 Goals and targets!!

Ever since I was 16, I had this fear of passing the year without doing anything that can give meaning and memories to my life. And thanks to these feelings I had, I have been trying my best to live my life to the fullest and I have not been regretting it much ever since. Of course there are some unhappiness throughout, but all of those will be over and my sun will be up again ^^. Who knows maybe my life will end in any second, so my target in life is to not have any regrets no matter when my life is to end.


I can say that I’ve had a really nice year, my lovely 2010, the year of Tiger. My year two and beginning of year three university had been normal as well. Lots of unusual and abnormal people I have met, but I’ve managed to grace through all of the hardships without any major problems. Have nearly failed my Year 2, but god gave me a miracle and helped me to pass them. Will be working harder for my final year, I would love to be able to graduate as soon as possible, and go charge in for my dreams! ~

Took my JLPT N1 exam, which I don’t think I could pass. But I still have to thank my sensei, Nakamura sensei for putting lots of effort in teaching me. I will definitely take the exam again even if I failed. After-all Japanese is still my favourite language to begin with.

My trip to Vietnam with mum is really good as well. I enjoyed eating those delicious foods from Vietnam, and shopping + adventure experience is cool as well. Love the dinner which I get to wear my yukata, if not I won’t get much chance wearing them, haha.

I have to thanks my parents as well for supporting me in my events, as well as the precious gift they gave me on my bday. A big thanks for my lovely friends as well, for taking the effort to have fun with me~.
And now to all readers, I shall continue writing the below 9 other posts. A very Happy New Year 2011 to ALL, enjoy your lovely year ahead!

(2) Comic Fiesta 2010 - 18 DECEMBER 2010

This is my first time attending CF and I gave myself a big challenge by performing 5 songs during CF 2010.

Song List:
1. Suzumiya Haruhi - God Knows
2. Hakuouki 2nd season - Maikaze TV size
3. Durarara!! - Uragiri no Yuuyake TV size
4. Angelic Layer - Ameagari TV size
5. K-ON!! - No! Thank you

All of the songs are fast pace songs except Ameagari, therefore it is quite a challenge for me as I’m better in singing slow songs. I always wanted challenge myself with fast songs that require stamina because I’m more of a rock person than a sentimental one, haha. One big mistake I made was to choose a guy song that is quite low in pitch, should not have done that but I still enjoyed that song. Made some mistakes here and there during the performance as well, will definitely remember my mistakes and will do much better for my next performances.


I’m lucky to have Akiko to spend her entire day with me listening to me practicing for CF. I’m glad that her group cosplay performance went well on that day. Really regretted that I did not stay long during CF, will definitely stay till the end for CF 2011. One thing about this year’s CF is that the venue is way too crowded, there are no spaces in between and everyone has to squeeze with each other. Might be hard for people to enjoy the stage performances and doujin stalls.
Nevertheless I’m still glad to be able to perform in such a great event, with the support of my precious family members.

My performance video, taken by sis:

Please visit my page: Jasmine Minori

(9) Achievements…(+ failures of course >_<)

To sum up my entire year, my achievements are:
1. 3 performances
2. Finish my Year 2 Uni
3. Went to as much events as I could attend
4. Took JLPT
5. Supported GazettE ^^
6. Went to the cinema alone
7. Didn’t cause any trouble at uni
8. Shopping spree was a success =_=
9. Recorded many songs and started up my vocal cover blog


Failures:
1. Failed some subjects during the first attempt of my Year 2 finals
2. Did not manage to force myself for sports even though I did thought about it
3. I can’t really think of any more failures, but that doesn’t mean I’m good and all, I just can’t think of it as of now, so just let me get by this time >_<.

(10) And FINALLY, the LAST post: Year 2011 Goals and Targets!!

1. Perform more than 3 performances
2. Pass my JLPT N1 this time for sure (if I failed)
3. Look up for Amber Chia’s Academy image courses after graduate
4. Try to dye my hair
5. Try to go to the nail parlor for once
6. Go GazettE’s concert tour final in Japan
7. Picnic!!
8. Start up my Japanese Tuition classes
9. Enjoy my trip to UK~
10. Become a better person ^_^


This ends the longest posts I’ve ever made, 10 blog posts at once for the last day of the year. Happy New Year and a fruitful year ahead!

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Was having a massive "blog-deleted" & "email-hacked" situation, that made me lost all my urges to blog. Initially thought of blogging some of my nice outings (before those stuff happened), but I just lost it like that. Anyway, am here now because I (sorta) completed my AIC topic choice form, which I was really dragging and avoiding to look at it. Am having a 2 weeks break, doesn't feel like a break at all, first week was attending WCOA(World Congress of Accountants) and MoneyTree Workshop. This week I have my japanese to deal with as well.

JLPT is real soon, and I'm really worried about it. I keep having the feeling that I won't be lucky as to pass it this time. Am so scared that I don't know how to tell anyone, so I decided to type it here. I somehow looking forward for days to pass, but I know very well I needed more time to prepare. School days have been hectic as well, I can't last through the night as well as how i did usually.

One good news I'm having is that I managed to get a place on stage during CF. I definitely needed some K session, but I'm really lacking of people to go with me. Therefore everytime I think back, loneliness always strike me. I don't have pals where I can go shop with as much as I want, I don't have anyone with me who can enjoy with me all the fun I have, miserable indeed.

I don't feel like typing anything now, thanks to blogger. Bye.

二十歳前、最後の秋

I'm going through my last Autumn of teenage. Hmm, what can I say about it. Yup!~ Plans plans and more plans! Unavoidable my 3rd year uni is starting real soon, will try my best not to feel the same way as how I went through my year two. Gotta work hard for my JLPT N1 as well, syllabus has gone way much tougher than the previous one, really thanks to my parents for supporting me, as well as Nakamura sensei for putting up with my stupidity. It would be spring again once I passed the exam.

Another thing about Autumn, is of course, Fashion! Cosmetics! *And Akiko!! LOL*. I just adore Autumn fashion, the furs and boots and socks and everything else! Autumn and Winter is the only two seasons which I wouldn't mind buying those expansive Japan/Taiwan fashion mags. Would rather save on Summer, Spring depends on whether the mag is worth buying. So obviously i'm spending my days Staring at my mags (mum bought them for me, thanks~), learning new makeup techniques, and yes omg my wishlist is getting longer and longer (writing on my little notebook).

So, any Autumn wishes? Yup, enjoy every part of my life no matter how sucky it is! (yes i really enjoy vampire stuffs these days, it just reminds me of it when i say the work 'suck').

 

 

*Oh yes, I really love my k-on vox amplug, thanks Kent for helping me buying it. Had a real good time playing my guitar since then^^)

Bye now~

...

I'm back from everything. Yes, previous weekend to my mum's hometown, and this weekend as well. Was trying to force myself to update something, at least something so that i won't neglect my blog. Oh and a HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Steph, may you be happy for this year as well.

Went out with C.C. and Shirley for C.C.'s farewell, she's going to UK for the prog. We had some little tiny fun in the car, skipping the movie after an hour inside, a nice lunch, and a really short shopping. But who cares, fun can exist in anywhere, if you know how to find it.

Now, during my trip to mum's hometown, I had lots of thoughts of wanting to keep a journal. Partly due to watching vampire diaries, one of my current vamp heat stuff. Love watching and reading them, but at the same time realises that i don't think I will be able to find a bf anymore due to all those perfect cool vamps lovingly showing their fangs around in fantasies.

 

 

Am currently chewing my newly bought, Cheddar Cheese Crispies, I named it my fav snack for now, wonder will i be able to buy it again from Marks and Spencer. BYE.

まだ進める。。

Am having referral exam now. Okay, I know I've been slacking off really too much during my Year 2, oh well, can't do anything about it now other than force pass all the subs. Resolve of working hard on Year 3 can only be done after I get through this right? However this one now is not as easy, i can't believe i'm actually praying hard everyday. But one thing, after telling my parents about it, I actually felt better. Kinda stupid of me to hide it all to myself for around 1 month. Felt really bad and suffering, can't even enjoy well. Served me right deshou...

Anyway, not just the exams, I've been missing some events as well, Asaban due to prayers, and might not even get to sing in Animangaki. No K partner here with me (Sacchin!!!Come back!!!)..Super itching to sing!!! Oh and can't wait to go out with all my friends, thanks for waiting for me~

Lots of planning ahead~ Seeya!

うわああ。。ちょっと長いポストね～

Okay...I've been really slacking off from blogging, feeling super lazy. Was using exam as my reason for not blogging, but nah, just lazy. Will speed up my backlog posts now:

There's few stuffs happenning, I've forgotten about the sequence and the dates, so i'll just lump them together, forgive me for the short description, I'll just briefly go through >_<..

(Will be really random)

1. One night when sis is doing her caligraphy homework, I was bored of studying and went to see her practice, unable to stand the fun (I love writing caligraphy), I took the brush and wrote her practice for her, haha.. After a while, perhaps due to the laughters and chitchats, mum came out and join the fun (winks~)

 

 

So i asked her to write a line of poem from a TVB drama series:

What a beautiful writing~ I wish I could write as nice, hahaha...Oh the big words at the right side (with boxes to guide), is my writings >_<, it's not too bad, I hope..

2. Mum went to service her car in Toyota service centre..I went and wait together with mum after my chinese harp lesson. Here comes the fun part, there's a coffee launge where there's free coffee, teas or other drinks, and there's this really nice munchy biscuits!! (cheese cream flavor i think..), I took around 6 packets, a bit 'paiseh', but still, it's delicious!!

Oh yeah and the toyota paper cup for the drinks is CUTE~

3. I finally went to try out Cone Pizza at Puchong jaya! Am really happy and excited. Went there twice in a week, yeah, twice a row, hahaha, both times with mum. Dad and sis haven't tried it yet, they were quite reluctant to try at first, but i guess they are quite fine by now..

Had their cone pizza for my first attempt, Meat Mania flavor ^^, It was just normal to me, quite expansive since it's small. Thanks to Akiko's reminder, I did ask for extra cheese.

Mum took carbonara fettucine for both days, I took it on my second day as well, it was quite a nice experience, but I still prefer the pasta in Italiannies. Still it's not bad for a small restaurant like this.

Quite a satisfactory plate of fettucine carbonara, I don't mind going there again ^_^~

4. Went to the cake house on the same row of cone pizza after my meals, bought 4 different cakes:

Strawberry sponge, Green tea, Marble cheese, and Choc..

 

 

 

The choc cake is for our maid, she left us on the 19th of May 2010, she might be back after a year, but that's up to her..Miss her a little >_<..

5. Ok, so my maid left, and I cooked and prepare simple lunches for sis before she goes to school ^^. One of the days, Akiko came by and helped me on the meals, she cooked nice omelette meals for me and sis, Thanks soooo much, Akiko~

 

Looks nice isn't it? The dark colour liquid thingy is japanese curry from 100yen, some instant pack that is really easy to cook ^^.

A week after, Akiko came to drop by for lunch as well as pass me the stuff that mum and I ordered, we made lunch together. Our first attempt of hash browns~

It was hard to flip it in the pot, so we tried baking it a while >_<, with cheese, hahaa. It was a nice experience, I will definitely try and make it again~

6. Went to a wedding dinner in Teluk Intan, for someone related to my mum. It was quite boring there, nothing fun and hapenning, unlike other wedding dinners I attend before. But it was fine at least because cousins are there, and our closer relatives were fun to be with ^^.

~My Family~

 

Cousins and us ^^

That's all for now, am gonna post another backlog post when i'm free!

リスト =_=

Okay. I realise I HAVE to write up a list for my downloading or else i'll forget or go confuse which to download. Put the blame to Sacchin. She have been spamming and torturing me in the other blog. With LOADS of SUPER cool songs. Help me! Save me!

I've been putting so many songs on hold (have to wait till their release, and I can't seem to remember the loads of dates.

 

 

AND, i'm dying for my assignment. YAMAHA, what and how do you expect me to write about you, gosh.

Okay, gonna add a sidebar for list of downloads, chao time.

*Removed sidebar download list*

戻りました。。

Yeah, I'm back =_=.. Have been too lazy to blog, ever since months ago I guess. Everytime I saw my blog I just have to do something else, forgive me. I deleted all the pending posts from before, as I don't think I could write in exact everything happened in those events, and besides the mood is not there anymore >_<; Really feel sorry for Eunee, but I'll put it in my heart forever, all pictures are with me too ~

 

 

Let's see, what is happening to me lately. Oh yeah, I passed my JLPT 2 Kyuu, am quite surprised and of course happy. All different feelings mixed together in my heart, I don't know what to say. And I'm about to signed up for GAMP and C2AGE's stage performance, having a BIG problems choosing songs, wish me luck.

Uni life, I hate to say this, but its quite suffering, been trying my best to keep my spirits up. New campus sucks, but am still trying to adapt, trying to cheat myself from thinking it isn't that bad. Relationships in uni sucks terribly as well; assignment group members gave me quite a hard time, but I succeed in not blowing up. Has pros and cons though, if it was me previously I would have defend myself and let my emotions go freely, but I didn't. I bottled all my dissatisfaction in my heart, and let things just pass by and I really hated myself for doing that. It's like I'm not how I used to be anymore, better EQ? Better temper management? Well you could say that, but I can't really forgive myself and get over it that soon. Many of my friends have had problems too, and each of them handles it in a different way; I'm just seeing them from the side and do nothing.

So to sum up all, basically my Year 2 life up till now is nothing but sitting down and be on top of the fence. I don't put myself in anything, physically and mentally. It's a little sad that whenever I turn around, there would be no one. When I badly need someone to have meals with, there would be no one. And even if I'm having meals with some friends, I have nothing to say or share. Worst, I now have no desire to get over with this, am tired and is going to be a living corpse for around 1 more year.

Anyway, putting that aside, Am planning to do some early self study for JLPT Level 1. Want to go order Neo-genesis as well, therefore it would mean I'm going to Kinokuniya soon. Can's wait for my holiday, so I can go have some decent meals, go have a walk with or without people with me, have some nice fresh air, improve my singing in K session, read some nice books and new informations....Lot's of nice stuff awaiting, so I should at least ignore my life now and look forward for it ^^.

十八歳のいろいろ。。

I just have to post this on my first day of 19th years old - What I've been through in my 18th year and what I felt. Ever since the same day last year, I've decided to live my 18th year the best I could, do the most I could do. Well, of course, life isn't just about happiness, there's lots of problems and sadness throughout the year too, but thats the point of life.

I'll start from my bday last year, mum and sis went to my uni, to organise a mini lunch party during my lunch hour, with my bunch of friends. Well, I don't call most of them 'friends' now, but out of the bunch of losers there's some which I find them as good friends, and i'm really glad I met them. Uni was a big problem for me during my 18th year, in the middle of my first year I felt so horrible that I hated that place so much. I was betrayed by my so called 'close friends' directly in front of me, and no, I will never forgive and forget that moment because it will continue to help me grow. I utterly hate myself for being so close to Rabbit (a short name I gave to that person). I hate myself for going to her house, for chatting so much about dramas and movies, i hate myself for trusting her so much. However, I'm really grateful that during the harsh times my parents were there to help me, and Chen chin, who looks like a float when i'm about to drown. She helped me a lot during the hard times, and because of her i got back the motivation to continue to live within a bunch of hypocrites. Ah, another thing that saved me was the 4 months summer break as well, gives me a peace of mind from those inhuman creatures.

 

 

I had totally fully used my holiday, or so I thought. I took my grade8 theory exam (I got a merit!!), I took my chinese harp grd8 exam (distinction for this), and I joined the piano competition. I do work hard on all of them and I did get a lot of experience, and I never regret the time I spent for them. Another important thing in my life that appear on my 18th year of life is my electric guitar - Ren, which dad gave me during my 18th bday. It made me go one step closer to my dreams, and once again assuring me that my dreams would never fade if I continue to persue it. I have to thank Ren for letting me to meet my guitar instructor, Mr Yap, he was really a kind teacher, and openned up my eyes once more ^_^.

 

 

Throughout the year I had many outings with my close friends, they never forget me no matter how far they are. I will try my best not to forget any single memories with all of them. Not to forget, I got my first Gazette album this year! On their 7th aniversary, hope I will grow along with them, they are really my idol. DIM outing with sayoko, my best K partner, I really realise that there's no one else in the world now that I could have so much fun with in K, thanks so much and am really looking forward to see you again.

I took JLPT Level 2 this year as well, which was one of the steps to get closer to my dream. I really wondered what's my results but anyway, I did put my effort in it and thank you nakamura sensei for her teachings. My beginning of uni year 2 was great too, as I do not have to make any contact with people I do not wish to speak with. And I got closer to another friend of mine, Shirley. Both C.C and Shirley really helped me a lot in uni, once again, thank you.

 

 

The saddest news in this month is that my grandmother left us. I know that no one else will write about it, but I always think that we could always think the other way round, grandma is living in a world filled with happiness and freedom now, free from any suffereing. Thank you for giving birth to my mum, which is the main reason why I could be here to see the world.

 

 

I'm proud of myself for my 18th year and I'm really looking forward for my 19th year, my final year before i'm a young adult. My 18th year will now be a past tense and will lock in my memories forever, thank you everyone and I love all of you. With this i will proceed to the next year of my life and I do have many plans for this year too, gonna do my best in my everything, so that I would not regret living everyday.

ラブリの三日

Had a one week mid sem holiday last week, strictly say my real holiday was only 3 days, 16-18 Nov 2009 as we went to mum's hometown from Thursday till Sunday. My Monday was fine, staying at home relaxing, surfing the net and all...Tuesday was my JLPT trial exam for vocabulary and listening paper. Was really worried about the results but it turns out to be fine ^_^ (Thanks to all the prayers~). 

 

Wednesday was relaxing at home as well, until Akiko came online and we chatted. She decided to baked me some potatoes (which made me almost cry) for my lunch. I had heard about her making baked potatoes from twitter and all, and I just can't believe I got a chance to try it! hehehe...Anyway, Akiko arrived my house around 3 something in the afternoon. Passed me the stuff which I ordered in F+F from her. Nodame bag is super worth!!And my saphire ring! OMGosh, I really didn't regret buying it. Love my wing ring also, another pair ring with Akiko ^_^. Can't wait for a chance to use all of them.

Back to the potatoes, IT WAS GREAT. I wanted to try making it when I got the chance to buy some potatoes.

Topped with CHEESE(my love), hhahaa. Meanwhile chatted with Akiko about Arakure (the manga i'm super crazy into now) and showed her the anime lyrics typing game, hope she like it.

By the way, I've always wanted to take pictures of the tree in front of my house. Well, mum don't really like it because it is the one and only tree which all its leaves has fallen. But I love it because of the same reason.  Here's some pics taken using Akiko's hp cam, tree in rainy season:

Second pic: Taken in the angle which you can see the mountain behind my house.

Third pic: Taken directly under the tree.

I will take more of them with different views next time...

Note: currently playing Lacie Pandora Hearts on piano, and planing to get Arakure manga