Yeah, I'm back =_=.. Have been too lazy to blog, ever since months ago I guess. Everytime I saw my blog I just have to do something else, forgive me. I deleted all the pending posts from before, as I don't think I could write in exact everything happened in those events, and besides the mood is not there anymore >_<; Really feel sorry for Eunee, but I'll put it in my heart forever, all pictures are with me too ~
Let's see, what is happening to me lately. Oh yeah, I passed my JLPT 2 Kyuu, am quite surprised and of course happy. All different feelings mixed together in my heart, I don't know what to say. And I'm about to signed up for GAMP and C2AGE's stage performance, having a BIG problems choosing songs, wish me luck.
Uni life, I hate to say this, but its quite suffering, been trying my best to keep my spirits up. New campus sucks, but am still trying to adapt, trying to cheat myself from thinking it isn't that bad. Relationships in uni sucks terribly as well; assignment group members gave me quite a hard time, but I succeed in not blowing up. Has pros and cons though, if it was me previously I would have defend myself and let my emotions go freely, but I didn't. I bottled all my dissatisfaction in my heart, and let things just pass by and I really hated myself for doing that. It's like I'm not how I used to be anymore, better EQ? Better temper management? Well you could say that, but I can't really forgive myself and get over it that soon. Many of my friends have had problems too, and each of them handles it in a different way; I'm just seeing them from the side and do nothing.
So to sum up all, basically my Year 2 life up till now is nothing but sitting down and be on top of the fence. I don't put myself in anything, physically and mentally. It's a little sad that whenever I turn around, there would be no one. When I badly need someone to have meals with, there would be no one. And even if I'm having meals with some friends, I have nothing to say or share. Worst, I now have no desire to get over with this, am tired and is going to be a living corpse for around 1 more year.
Anyway, putting that aside, Am planning to do some early self study for JLPT Level 1. Want to go order Neo-genesis as well, therefore it would mean I'm going to Kinokuniya soon. Can's wait for my holiday, so I can go have some decent meals, go have a walk with or without people with me, have some nice fresh air, improve my singing in K session, read some nice books and new informations....Lot's of nice stuff awaiting, so I should at least ignore my life now and look forward for it ^^.
