VERSAILLES~~きゃああ～～

Decided to blog RIGHT now because i'm VERY VERY VERY HIGH NOW. (ahhem...pardon me.) I was really unhappy about life in that university, mainly because of that ---, it's dangerous to say it out so loudly. Besides the ---, life in uni was really unexplainable...i shouldn't complain too much, this is life. I actually cried, well, it has been long since my last tearing. It must be the real me in my heart don't want me to cope anymore. I really hated --- at that point of time. I wanted to be me and shouted back at everyone who treated me as a 'nobody', 'useless', 'invisible' person. Thanks to my parents, I'm now free from that torture, at least for now. I believe the starting point that my parents gave me is good enough, i should be able to handle the rest. Thanks.

So i got my new theory teacher, which was a hundred times better than the previous one. She could mark my work in less than a five minutes! Thats what you call, nice teacher. For guitar, still the same, playing kiddy songs. I still love you, REN (after much and long consideration, you are REN.)

Indulge in punk clothings, lolita as well nowadays. Found this band (not a very new band, 2 yrs), Versailles. I had to say this, I LOVE VERSAILLES!!! You all are great. I haven't really felt so hot and high since i like Gazette last time. It has been long since i actually thought that all 12 tracks in the album is great. Vocal, guitar, and particularly everything is perfect. Gazette, i still love you, don't worry. I'm waiting impatiently for your new singles!! Should i go preorder?? I will still be sad of being here, where NO jrock cd is sold.

Still looking forward to go out, looking forward to buy cosmetics (although chances of me going to majorlica roadshow is 0.0005%), looking forward to meet people who makes me feel alive and real.

JROCK の魂

Wanted to update my blog for the past week, but i just need to complete my nine journals within six days. As you could imagine, it's quite a rush to complete it on time. After this, there seem to be much more work for me, (stupid) credit crisis poster presentation, Statistics assignments...But i guess all should be over by march. As usual, i'm still desperate on going out. Really, no kidding.

Here's some event i WISH and HOPE i would be going...

Majolica Majorca Girly Erotica in Midvalley.

Actually if i really do go to this, i will drag mum along, and maybe beg her to get some cosmetics for me...Spend more than RM150 to entitle a photoshoot! It might not be so special to you, but i've never done a photoshooting before. Spend more than RM80 to get a nice pouch.

Maybe this is a nice chance for me to get a complete set of cosmetics, good cosmetics. But still probability of me going there is so little that now i felt i could just spend my time looking at the poster.

I'm currently very good in EQ, i would say, until i felt like i'm soooo fake to the ones I hated. Well, just a little more and i can be freed a little from the acting. Still, i believe i can do it, it should not be a problem to me. I feel that the only real world i'm in is music and all my best friends that always be with me in my heart.

Talk about music, i'm still in twinkle twinkle little star, but in various keys..using guitar of course. But there are still some thing in my music world which made me upset: that theory teacher who abandons me...I will do some nessessary actions though..

Here's the nice news Akiko told me:

JROCK no tamashii..A nice outing to do..Told my mum, she AGREED to let me go!!!WOOHOO!!! But maybe because of this, i might not get to go to the majolica ones...haih..

Anyway, i'm now VERY into buying clothes. Nice clothes, nice styles...Hope to get more nice stuff...and hope that i can scream out all my heart somewhere. I'm depressed.

ハッピ ヴァレンタイン！

Firstly, Happy Valentines Day.

That was yesterday, have not been doing any school work, because i'm worry that if i made myself too fed up of it, I might not be able to continue for my three years. Anyway, this year's valentine is quite terrible, besides not receiving any gifts, I could not even find a person which I can give the gifts to. I'm not desperate of having a boyfriend, I wouldn't even care of them, but I just hope to find a person to be close with.

Anyway, went out with my family for valentine. We went for a buffet dinner, which was lousy. Very lousy. Service was terrible, food as well. But the best thing of it is that we got quite a good discount after we told the person that we are not quite satisfied with them. We went for a short shopping after the dinner. Dad asked mum to choose for a gift as valentine present. Wen bought Paris Hilton's handbag!! I have to really admit this, the bags just look very nice and cute. Mum bought a new arrival bag, black colour with starry patterns (I just don't know how to describe). While mum is deciding whether to buy or not, I saw one brown furry handbag, forgot what season is that, but it just look too cute. Dad said I look good with it, which really shocked me, because he seldom say anything about me looking good with a handbag. The brown furry bag cost RM3XX.XX, but we could get a discount if we buy a purse, which cost RM1XX.XX. Mum wanted a purse for a long time, so she took one, so that I could get the brown furry bag. She did buy that black bag too, it just so hard to resist the black bag. So we ended up buying three items one shot. You can imagine how much is the total(8XX.XX). Suddenly, the sales girl said that the credit card machine is unavailable. OMG!!Did she expect people go around bringing so much of cash??Yeah, I did ask her that. I really thought that I just missed the chance of getting it. But unpredictably, mum said she had that much of cash with her. I was like...,really, "...". Looks like she is desperate like me too.

My brown bag!!It's just so soft and furry..It matches my boots. I'm still indulging myself with the bag. Currently keeping it in mum's room, her room got more space for my bag to stay..

Just don't mind the photoshooting. I know I look ugly, but you could just ignore me, and just look at the bags. By the way, behind me was the paper bag from the shop. Paris Hilton there. I wasn't particularly like paris hilton, but just the bags, they were all in good designs.

Family picture, cheese...Mine, as you all saw just now, is the brown one, mum's the black bag. It looks so cool and cute, hehehe..Mum said I could borrow it if i wanted to use it. But i don't think so, because she will use it quite often. Third item is a note book, gave to us free if we reached some amount of money. Fourth is the purse, which made me own th brown bag ^_^.

Had quite a nice time with my family. Today, i practised my guitar, playing twinkle twinkle little star. I know it sounds funny, but well...I really have to say this, I LOVE MY GUITAR. I vowed to myself to join a band once I managed to read and play well.

やっと出かけました！

Finally went out, although just a short while, but i managed to find the prices of some stuff that i want. Must really save money, haih, sad. I felt really sorry, forgotten my friend's bday. I thought that 6th of feb is saturday..Bought two mangas again, and two little cute accessories. One for me and another for my sis. Mine is a cat mirror, another is a mini super small purse.

Don't you think its sooo adorable??I plan to go buy somemore. Mum wanted to buy some for her staffs as well. Hope to go out very soon...Got a sms from akiko saying that times square has lots of stuff!! Someone please bring me there..hahaha.

Supposed to go for open house on saturday, but we couldn't find the house, and got lost for almost two hours. Now i really agree with what my friends said, getting lost in KL is really a scary thing, you will go to unexpected places. We nearly drove to Ipoh!! We ended up turning back to our place, had a nice luxurious dinner. Imagine each person one small pot of shark fin! You can even smell the fin's smell( prove that it's real). Four of us played cards at night. Dad thought me and sis various card games. I lost rm15, while sis lost rm22.

Went out this morning to small little places. Bought something great!! I bought some thick manga magazines( those that sold in midvalley, those japanese thick manga magazines). 3 for rm10 only!! I bought four books of ALICE, and one Happy Happy(thats the title). Alice book cover is more cute, mainly for shoujo, Happy Happy is not so good.

Bought issue number 10,11,12 and the following year issue number 1. Free gifts that come with the issues are always so great. Posters, cards and all..

Wish: go out grab more stuff, go to more places, try get back all membership cards.

Doing: Thinking of what nice rock songs to burn into cd-to give my guitar teacher, Thinking of how to read all the pile of books i have.

Currently: angrying about something-I can't say it here

うちに来たありがとう

Invited some college friends to my house for the new year. Was having lot's of fun playing and chatting. Really hope that they are having fun as well, and don't mind my stupidity and the messyness in my house.

But i do really glad that this mini open house helps me to chat with my dad, and that he don't keep saying that I cause him trouble (lost of purse). His luck wasn't really good as well..his car was crashed, but luckily he's fine.

I really need to PRACTISE my piano and guitar, I think my skills will really go down the way if I don't reexercise my fingers. I just hope that I can perform well in front of my friends next time.

DESPERATELY NEED TO GO OUT TO BUY STUFF. but I might not be able to buy MANY stuff...haih....My money for cosmetics is gone...i wonder when will I collect it back.

大変！！

Second day of schooling...lecturers been dumping stuff on my shoulders, I really wonder if i can manage them all. But anyway, i don't really care about it, my character-not to care too much about stuff I don't really want to care about.

My instrument playing is as good as dead. Haven't been practising(not even once!!) for weeks. Felt so sorry. In the same time feeling affraid of my guitar, always had that feeling that i will not be able to master it.

Talk about nails, mum got Marks and Spencer stuff from a colleague(again ^_^) this time is a set of shower gel, hand wash and hand and nail cream. Mum gave me the hand and nail cream, see the word "nail". Love my new nail cream:

I know, i know, my camera is crappy. I will assist you all in reading: White Peach and Almond, Hand and Nail Cream. Applied some on my hand, it smell sweet. One thing that attracts me the most is the colour, looks so milky and creamy. Good thing is that i planned to buy OPI nail cream previously, but now i don't have to spend that money again.

I've been constantly checking about BJDs, another new super gorgeous model is OUT!! Em, her name is Ean, sounds and looks soooo very very very cool.

See her tattoo? She just look great. How i wish i can be as cool as her. That red blouse is one of my target items, so anyone, pls do inform me if you saw this anywhere.

Note: friends are dropping by my house in less than two days time. Felt excited but in the same time controlling myself. Hope everything will go smoothly and that i won't embarassed myself and my house in front of them.

Still thinking: whether to post pictures of cosmetics i planned to buy. Sadly, i might not be able to go on with my secret plan-to sweep of the mall alone this week.