戻りました。。

Yeah, I'm back =_=.. Have been too lazy to blog, ever since months ago I guess. Everytime I saw my blog I just have to do something else, forgive me. I deleted all the pending posts from before, as I don't think I could write in exact everything happened in those events, and besides the mood is not there anymore >_<; Really feel sorry for Eunee, but I'll put it in my heart forever, all pictures are with me too ~

 

 

Let's see, what is happening to me lately. Oh yeah, I passed my JLPT 2 Kyuu, am quite surprised and of course happy. All different feelings mixed together in my heart, I don't know what to say. And I'm about to signed up for GAMP and C2AGE's stage performance, having a BIG problems choosing songs, wish me luck.

Uni life, I hate to say this, but its quite suffering, been trying my best to keep my spirits up. New campus sucks, but am still trying to adapt, trying to cheat myself from thinking it isn't that bad. Relationships in uni sucks terribly as well; assignment group members gave me quite a hard time, but I succeed in not blowing up. Has pros and cons though, if it was me previously I would have defend myself and let my emotions go freely, but I didn't. I bottled all my dissatisfaction in my heart, and let things just pass by and I really hated myself for doing that. It's like I'm not how I used to be anymore, better EQ? Better temper management? Well you could say that, but I can't really forgive myself and get over it that soon. Many of my friends have had problems too, and each of them handles it in a different way; I'm just seeing them from the side and do nothing.

So to sum up all, basically my Year 2 life up till now is nothing but sitting down and be on top of the fence. I don't put myself in anything, physically and mentally. It's a little sad that whenever I turn around, there would be no one. When I badly need someone to have meals with, there would be no one. And even if I'm having meals with some friends, I have nothing to say or share. Worst, I now have no desire to get over with this, am tired and is going to be a living corpse for around 1 more year.

Anyway, putting that aside, Am planning to do some early self study for JLPT Level 1. Want to go order Neo-genesis as well, therefore it would mean I'm going to Kinokuniya soon. Can's wait for my holiday, so I can go have some decent meals, go have a walk with or without people with me, have some nice fresh air, improve my singing in K session, read some nice books and new informations....Lot's of nice stuff awaiting, so I should at least ignore my life now and look forward for it ^^.

十八歳のいろいろ。。

I just have to post this on my first day of 19th years old - What I've been through in my 18th year and what I felt. Ever since the same day last year, I've decided to live my 18th year the best I could, do the most I could do. Well, of course, life isn't just about happiness, there's lots of problems and sadness throughout the year too, but thats the point of life.

I'll start from my bday last year, mum and sis went to my uni, to organise a mini lunch party during my lunch hour, with my bunch of friends. Well, I don't call most of them 'friends' now, but out of the bunch of losers there's some which I find them as good friends, and i'm really glad I met them. Uni was a big problem for me during my 18th year, in the middle of my first year I felt so horrible that I hated that place so much. I was betrayed by my so called 'close friends' directly in front of me, and no, I will never forgive and forget that moment because it will continue to help me grow. I utterly hate myself for being so close to Rabbit (a short name I gave to that person). I hate myself for going to her house, for chatting so much about dramas and movies, i hate myself for trusting her so much. However, I'm really grateful that during the harsh times my parents were there to help me, and Chen chin, who looks like a float when i'm about to drown. She helped me a lot during the hard times, and because of her i got back the motivation to continue to live within a bunch of hypocrites. Ah, another thing that saved me was the 4 months summer break as well, gives me a peace of mind from those inhuman creatures.

 

 

I had totally fully used my holiday, or so I thought. I took my grade8 theory exam (I got a merit!!), I took my chinese harp grd8 exam (distinction for this), and I joined the piano competition. I do work hard on all of them and I did get a lot of experience, and I never regret the time I spent for them. Another important thing in my life that appear on my 18th year of life is my electric guitar - Ren, which dad gave me during my 18th bday. It made me go one step closer to my dreams, and once again assuring me that my dreams would never fade if I continue to persue it. I have to thank Ren for letting me to meet my guitar instructor, Mr Yap, he was really a kind teacher, and openned up my eyes once more ^_^.

 

 

Throughout the year I had many outings with my close friends, they never forget me no matter how far they are. I will try my best not to forget any single memories with all of them. Not to forget, I got my first Gazette album this year! On their 7th aniversary, hope I will grow along with them, they are really my idol. DIM outing with sayoko, my best K partner, I really realise that there's no one else in the world now that I could have so much fun with in K, thanks so much and am really looking forward to see you again.

I took JLPT Level 2 this year as well, which was one of the steps to get closer to my dream. I really wondered what's my results but anyway, I did put my effort in it and thank you nakamura sensei for her teachings. My beginning of uni year 2 was great too, as I do not have to make any contact with people I do not wish to speak with. And I got closer to another friend of mine, Shirley. Both C.C and Shirley really helped me a lot in uni, once again, thank you.

 

 

The saddest news in this month is that my grandmother left us. I know that no one else will write about it, but I always think that we could always think the other way round, grandma is living in a world filled with happiness and freedom now, free from any suffereing. Thank you for giving birth to my mum, which is the main reason why I could be here to see the world.

 

 

I'm proud of myself for my 18th year and I'm really looking forward for my 19th year, my final year before i'm a young adult. My 18th year will now be a past tense and will lock in my memories forever, thank you everyone and I love all of you. With this i will proceed to the next year of my life and I do have many plans for this year too, gonna do my best in my everything, so that I would not regret living everyday.

JLPTの最後だ。。次わどうなるよね。。

Today my JLPT Level 2 has officially ended. I don't even know whether to feel relieved or to feel saddened by the end of it. Although the two months of preperation has been hard, as I have to go through more than other students; but it's still the only thing that made my study life more exciting (I would die of boredom if I did not take it). My busy tuesdays will end, will I feel the emptyness of it? LOL.

I remembered the first time I decided to take the exam, mum was kind enough to help me to arrange all the nessesaries, helping me to send in the forms and so on..And we encountered some problems, such as the two lousy front desk girls in ICLS. Until today I can't forget what they have said or done (they keep saying I won't get to pass the exam and so on...). Oh well, let's see if that's the issue, If I do pass, it would mean the failure of ICLS centre's classes, as they said that to be able to do JLPT Level 2 I must have took at least advance level 7 in icls, but see now? I'm not even in Advance 1 yet. This means that they should not judge people without knowing the standards of other party.

But so to say, icls's teachers are always the best. I really have to thank Nakamura sensei for all her teachings and understandings. She did not give stupid comments (such as I will surely fail) but she put more care in helping me to go through all the hardships. I've done all that I could have done in this exam and even if I failed it's not my fault or nakamura sensei's. Overall, Thank you Nakamura sensei! 中村先生、ほんとにありがとうございます、また今度ぜひお会いしましょうね。。＾＿＾

And I have to thank dad for sending me to this far far test centre, and spend a long hour with sis while waiting for me. JLPT is really one of the best thing that happen to me this year, would definitely take level 1 if I pass this, gonna take the results on March!

*Note: The reserved posts are for - my DIM outing with Sayoko^_^,  plus one more previous reserved post which is for shirley's bday..Am really too tired after the hectic day, will try my best to post them asap.

父さん 誕生日におめでとう!

5th December is my dad's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA ^_^..Hope you have a nice year ahead and hope you like the gift mum, sis and I bought for you. Due to my JLPT exam on the next day, we din't get to have much fun celebrating dad's birthday, really sorry..(will definitely go for a movie if I did not have my exam). But yeah, we still could watch movies anytime.. Once again, Happy birthday!~

The GazettE: DIM OUTING! さよこさんとのお出かけ～

And FINALLY, here's the post:

Sayoko is BACK on Tuesday and we went out straight away on Wednesday ^_^ ! Haha when I called her during tuesday night she was just reaching home, what a nice timing. We both decided to go for a DIM celebration outing + Fun Karaoke time for the first outing (first after she is back). DIM album was released on the 15th of July 2009 and we both ordered the limited edition (big hole in our pockets T_T, but worth it!). I was holding back soooo hard controling not to post on DIM just to wait for sayoko. Sayoko bought a GazettE artbook, a super pretty one, while I got myself DIM guitar picks and DIM wrist band. Sayoko brought her artbook during our meeting by the way, and we did took lots of pics of GazettE!

DIM intro first:

It was really a super tough time getting the album, problem to get someone to pay for us, problem to retrieve the stuffs from the post office (THANK YOU AKIKO FOR HELPING!!), etc...But all the problems are worth it! The album is just super cool wei...

 

LOVELY hologram cover case! You get to see different images in different angle. I was really surprise when i saw the cover because I had expect it too look ugly (sorry, ruki!). It was beyond my expectation that the cover is sooo pretty and cool! The normal version is just a cube in the middle, no hologram effects. It has the feel: WORTH IT!.

Haha, limited! The Limited edition sold off before they were ever release! See how cool GazettE is ^_^..The differences between the normal one is the cover, and one extra dvd (the pvs and makings). Invisible wall pv saikou!!

Here's the tracklist:

1.「剥離」
2. THE INVISIBLE WALL
3. A MOTH UNDER THE SKIN
4. LEECH
5. 泣ヶ原
6.「エ リ カ」
7. HEADACHE MAN
8. 紅蓮
9.「子宮」
10. 13STAIRS[-]1
11. DISTRESS AND COMA
12.「感触」
13. 白き優鬱
14. IN THE MIDDLE OF CHAOS
15.「朦朧」
16. OGRE
17. DIM SCENE

My personal love is Invisible wall, nakigahara, and all the songs from the older singles. And oh by the way the newest single Before I Decay was super cool as well (i can't afford to get the singles, will wait for the next album ^^).

Now back to the outing, we met each other on 11am at the karaoke, and of course, start singing! At first it was hard to find songs to sing, as i think they changed their setting and added some japanese songs, the songs become unorganized. But after a while, here comes the karaoke thing: There's too much songs to sing and no time!!! So we decided not to do photoshooting and save more time in singing. So many new songs to explore and yet the old songs were so nice to keep singing.

After karaoke, we decided to have some tea at San Fransisco Steakhouse (photo shoot!). Had a big time thinking what to order, the price there was not very friendly. And in the end we took one chocolate fondant, and one morning breeze drink.

 

Chocolate fondant is really the best i've eaten. The outer part is crispy, and inside is warm filled with chocolate liquid. Topped with vanila ice-cream.

Me and Sayoko with Morning Breeze~

And now the GazettE moment:

 

US with DIM album

The autograph booklet

Sayoko and REITA!! and KAI~

Me and Lovely URUHA and Super Cool AOI ^^

We and RUKI!!!

Now the artbook, it's super heavy, i really love it, but I know very well how much more items in my wanted list...

 

It comes with a box, and many posters..

Me and the super cool artbook

Sayoko and her artbook, can see how happy she is, hahaa

The artbook, without the box..

We spent some time looking through the artbook, staring at some of the cool pictures...and chat as if no one is in the world, hahaha..It was just super fun even sitting down doing nothing. Oh yeah, we did have some emo look photoshooting, which i'm lazy to post all of them up here. But here's my best take for Sayoko:

How's it? I just love this pic ^_^

And yeah, here we ended our DIM outing...Gonna go for another karaoke meet perhaps near my bday, and i'm gonna bring my DIM guitar picks. Thats all for now, see ya~